2016 ? That's fast !

Alhandulillah.

That's the word that I often utter, every single day. As for now, I am back in Malaysia. Back with my family. I have passed my medical school and I have obtained the long awaited degree, after 6 and a half years abroad. Tell me now, how can I not be grateful for that. Alhmadulillah for that though I did go through some obstacles throughout the journey.

I am now at the phase of enjoying life. Been back for a month and I have no commitments to anything. I am a free woman. I have no classes to go to, no assignments to be done, no tests or exams that I have to be worried about. I am just enjoying life and what it has to offer.

Sadly, one thing that doesn't agree of me being back home is probably my skin. I had the worst breakouts ever, it's like as though I'm going through puberty all over again (which is not cool, at all !) and I am so depress about it. Right now, I'm trying everything to just get it better. It's draining me out and so frustrating but we all do know that this thing takes time. So I'm just telling myself that good things come to those who wait. So, silently praying that it will just get better because it is affecting my social life too (Haa, if I do have any haha). I get reluctant to go out because honestly, my confidence has been thrown down into the drain.

While I'm writing this, I'm also in the midst of filling in the forms needed as one of the procedures to make sure that I will have a job. I am finally looking for a job, guys! Obviously, never happened before as my parents always think that it is never necessary for me to work ever since I finished high school. So that's definitely an achievement for me. I find it quite nerve wrecking though I am only required to fill in the forms and no human interactions at all. God knows how will I be for the interview haha!

I also noticed that this is my first post in 2016 and I skipped 2015 like a boss. Haha probably was too busy living my final year as a medical student. Definitely deserve a pat on the back as it proved that I definitely prioritized my studies more than anything (as if).

Last year was great. Went through quite a lot and so many things happened. And one thing that climbed on my top 10 was my eldest sister getting married. It was memorable as it was the first wedding in our family. It was great. Did encounter some difficulties but working with my siblings as a team was awesome. We just did great as a team. From there, I did learn and I always know that they will always be behind my back. I am just so grateful. I love them four so much.

Currently, I have so many things in my head. My hands are itching to write but I'm just not sure of the topics and things that I'm planning to write yet. So, hopefully that there will be a continuation to this post and hoping it is not 2017 the next time you hear from me haha.

If any of you who are reading this and I do know you, I am grateful that you're one of the people that I did encounter and met throughout my life. Thank you for being that one of the people. I am now here, at this point of my life because of you. For those who always pray for my well beings, my health and never fail to mention my name in your doa, I thank you.

I am so blessed and I am so grateful, truly.

Tickles ,

I was looking for some videos to find explanations about emergencies in neonates and somehow, I ended up having multiple tabs of these videos. All these videos made me happy, so happy hahahah. Good job Adibah, good job.

Way too adorable that I had to squeeze Frosty while watching and she probably hates me for that.

It's starting next week, I am channeling all my love towards kids and may it be proven, insya-Allah. Haaa :D

Twenty- "fill in any number"th birthday

SOMEONE IS A BIT OLDER TODAY !!!! :D

Happy birthday Izzati Aliah ! :) <3

Missing my precious gems more than usual today.

Curiosity kills the cat....

You know what is frustrating? 

When things that you were not supposed to tell slipped out of your mouth.

You know what is even more frustrating than that?

When you are SO close to tell the things you should not to the other person but somehow for some reasons you ended up not being able to do so. Possibly after thinking of the consequences, it made you think twice, thrice or more and decided, oh well, better not. When the other person is persistent and wants to know so badly while being clueless, you will end up feeling guilty and selfish for not telling.

BUT SOMEHOW,

Miraculously I have mustered all my courage to do it, to tell the truth, but it did not end well. I felt so betrayed though it was no one’s fault. I used up all my courage for nothing. Nothing and it is sad, it made me so sad. When that unfortunate event happened, you just knew that maybe it is a sign that it was never meant to be told.

Because of this, I definitely should have held my tongue from the beginning. Because of this, there is definitely someone who hates me. Or maybe not hate because hate is a mean word. But that person is undeniably annoyed. Well who knows ? Who wouldn’t be annoyed to be left hanging in the middle of conversation? For this, I feel so guilty. Like really. You don't even know. Only if the other person knows what it is though.

I am sad for being left with no choice but to be selfish and it makes me want to cry.

Magnitude of Actions Affected by Intentions

Well, it had been a while. Nothing posted in October.
The irony, since that was the month that I had been waiting for. Haaa.
Maybe cause what I wanted to happen did not though I knew it all along.
Oh wellllll

Will be facing the babies and kids. The routine to hospital is starting before exams.
It had been a while since I saw any sick kids. I will probably be affected for few days.

Many small actions are made great by the intentions behind them. Many great actions, on the other hand, are made small because the intentions behind them are lacking.

Learn about intentions, for their importance is greater than the importance of actions.

—Yahya b. Abu Kathir

Words < Actions < Intentions

:D

And right now, I am just happy. Like genuinely happy. :D

Oh Frosty ,

Frosty is killing me now. She is at it again. HELP ! 

Anyways, I just found out something funny. Well, since I kind of went back so sudden last month, people were making assumptions. Scary assumptions and funny too. First, there were people thought that I had some problems and sick that I had to go back to get my treatments. Haaaa, bless you people for being so worried but alhamdulillah all is well and I am not sick. Secondly hahahahahaha, people thought that I went back because I got engaged. Like where did that come from ??!! Like seriously hahahahahaha. I felt like they were mocking me when they asked me about it but they were really serious that I had to laugh about it. I am not engaged !! Haaaaaaaaaa !!!

If you are in front of your laptop now. Try this. Put your little finger on the alphabet O and your thumb on the shift key haha. Now you know how short my fingers are haaa ! If you do play instruments, tell me that I am not making any excuses haaaa hhaha.