Twenty- "fill in any number"th birthday

SOMEONE IS A BIT OLDER TODAY !!!! :D

Happy birthday Izzati Aliah ! :) <3

Missing my precious gems more than usual today.

Curiosity kills the cat....

You know what is frustrating? 

When things that you were not supposed to tell slipped out of your mouth.

You know what is even more frustrating than that?

When you are SO close to tell the things you should not to the other person but somehow for some reasons you ended up not being able to do so. Possibly after thinking of the consequences, it made you think twice, thrice or more and decided, oh well, better not. When the other person is persistent and wants to know so badly while being clueless, you will end up feeling guilty and selfish for not telling.

BUT SOMEHOW,

Miraculously I have mustered all my courage to do it, to tell the truth, but it did not end well. I felt so betrayed though it was no one’s fault. I used up all my courage for nothing. Nothing and it is sad, it made me so sad. When that unfortunate event happened, you just knew that maybe it is a sign that it was never meant to be told.

Because of this, I definitely should have held my tongue from the beginning. Because of this, there is definitely someone who hates me. Or maybe not hate because hate is a mean word. But that person is undeniably annoyed. Well who knows ? Who wouldn’t be annoyed to be left hanging in the middle of conversation? For this, I feel so guilty. Like really. You don't even know. Only if the other person knows what it is though.

I am sad for being left with no choice but to be selfish and it makes me want to cry.

Magnitude of Actions Affected by Intentions

Well, it had been a while. Nothing posted in October.
The irony, since that was the month that I had been waiting for. Haaa.
Maybe cause what I wanted to happen did not though I knew it all along.
Oh wellllll

Will be facing the babies and kids. The routine to hospital is starting before exams.
It had been a while since I saw any sick kids. I will probably be affected for few days.

Many small actions are made great by the intentions behind them. Many great actions, on the other hand, are made small because the intentions behind them are lacking.

Learn about intentions, for their importance is greater than the importance of actions.

—Yahya b. Abu Kathir

Words < Actions < Intentions

:D

And right now, I am just happy. Like genuinely happy. :D

Oh Frosty ,

Frosty is killing me now. She is at it again. HELP ! 

Anyways, I just found out something funny. Well, since I kind of went back so sudden last month, people were making assumptions. Scary assumptions and funny too. First, there were people thought that I had some problems and sick that I had to go back to get my treatments. Haaaa, bless you people for being so worried but alhamdulillah all is well and I am not sick. Secondly hahahahahaha, people thought that I went back because I got engaged. Like where did that come from ??!! Like seriously hahahahahaha. I felt like they were mocking me when they asked me about it but they were really serious that I had to laugh about it. I am not engaged !! Haaaaaaaaaa !!!

If you are in front of your laptop now. Try this. Put your little finger on the alphabet O and your thumb on the shift key haha. Now you know how short my fingers are haaa ! If you do play instruments, tell me that I am not making any excuses haaaa hhaha.

< A month

Cannot believe that it is less than a month ! Hikhokhikhok :O

You probably knew about this but yeah, my best friend got engaged and I missed it. Just putting it out there. We planned lots of things that we would like to do but too bad, I was back in Egypt and studying for exams. Nevertheless, I am just too happy. I knew about it months ago but as she requested for me to keep it as a secret, I had a hard time to do so. Thinking back about it, she should me buy me a nice dinner for that haaa. Anyways, I will probably be the flower girl for their wedding hahahah ! Just putting it out there.


Less than a month, just putting it out there hahahhaha. Oh welllll


Oh and when I was back at home last month. I did try to play the piano and strum the guitar ahhahaha. I played the piano based on the tutorial I found on youtube. It was undeniably hard because my fingers are too short. It might sound like an excuse or maybe I am giving an excuse right now but it was really hard. I stretched my thumb and little finger from one end to the other end hahaha, mummy had a good time laughing at me struggling but oh well, I tried. Then I asked Afiqah to teach me to strum the guitar, she too had a good time laughing at me. She said the sound I made cannot be compared to the expressions on my face. Why do I have short fingers, whyyyyyyyy ?

Ding Ding, plus point !

As per usual, since it is 9th, well and it is August (HOW TIME FLIES !?!?), another two months till my birthday :)

Now I  just found out that my best friend will not be around, she will be arriving two days later from Malaysia. My housemate will arrive a day after my birthday. Probably and possibly will be blowing the candle that I will buy for myself with Frosty, alone (Please don't. Please not alone.).

Eid was last week. Surprisingly it was great and I had a great time. Main reason cause I have my best friend with me haha. Or else, I will rot alone...... All the girls were so prettttttty with their colorful baju kurung and whatnot. And there I was, wearing the  black abaya I bought and altered on the night before Eid ahhaah Adibah !
My course mates planned to have a feast together, if you can call it that though haha. And oh I have to tell you that I am so proud with myself that I was so involved with it. I was so involved, poeple !!! Mummy would be proud hahahaha. I did contribute in every process. If not a lot, a little then. Oh welllllllll. Guess I did learn to mingle. One step closer to be a grown woman haaaaa. Plus point for me then hahahahah :D

So many hardships. Might not look like it was but we really did struggle a lot for this photo haha ! :D

Anyways,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin semua orang !
Since forgiving is a noble act, shame on you if you do not want to haha. Not only during Raya of course.
:D :D :D

Time flies ,

Birthday in less than 3 months. Mine :D

After sending my friend off,  I fell down when I was on my way to my class, without any reason. Hahahahhaha so paiseh. Luckily there was no one behind me haha and no one I knew was near me. Thank God !!! Whatever was on your mind, Adibah haaaa. 

Frosty and her kids are killing me. I have to be mentally prepared every morning before I go out from my room. Silently praying that my house is still okay. Bahhhh.

I am in the mood of baking and cooking but haihhhhh

Ramadhan is coming to an end. So fast.

Pointless post. The only thing worth reading is the first line haha. Oh yes, oh well. :D