Knowledge brings happiness,

Can I do a throwback on this blog haha ?

Just because I feel like it. Was being the annoying me while waiting for my flight. Reading and shutting people out when the others are eating, laughing, talking and well, eating. I will be fine as long as I have a book in my hand and Lauren as well.

If you desire happiness, then seek out knowledge and enlightenment, and you will find that anxiety, depression, and grief will leave you.

—Shaykh ‘Aidh al-Qarni

Balance

Lovely way to end my night with two dear friends of mine, alhamdulillah.
Thank you.

Finally, as the servant embodies and internalizes obedience to Allah, and as his spirit is elevated and his ego debased, he is filled with a deep concern for people’s welfare and for being in their service; aiding, guiding, counseling, and supplicating for them.  It is here, in the absence of the ego, that the effusions of true altruism pour forth from the servant, exemplifying the Prophetic concern and conduct.

—Abu Aaliyah Surkheel Shari

:)

Done

I am putting a stop to it. 

Should have not done it. 

What was I thinking ?

Yesterday,

I am happy.

Happiness is addictive.

Happiness is contagious.

Yesterday would be a normal day filled with classes.

Only....

Something happened and made yesterday out of norm.

That something happened for the first time.

That something involved another soul.

That something simply made me happy.

Because of that something, 

My hands were cold. Still are.

I could not stop myself from smiling.

I am positive that I really did smile in my sleep.

I am just happy.

The only explanation as to what I am feeling right now is by filling up a massive balloon with happiness, let it float and burst it. You will feel what I feel. Your body will be fueled with endorphins. 

With that, you will be wearing the best accessory.

A smile.

Your biggest smile.

I am happy.

(Still smiling. Had been smiling.) 

:)

I wish this to have a continuation.

All you ever,

Shirts or anything with the pads at the elbow. Oh how I envy people wearing anything with the pads and look nice in them solely cause the pads situated perfectly at their elbows. Oh you lucky people. If I happen to hate you, only reason being whenever I wear them, the pads will be somewhere in between my elbow and wrist. The sleeves are always way too long for me. Unfair. My love for elbow pads are being turned down. 

I love elbow pads so much. Ironically I never own anything that have them.

...............

This might be weird as I am ranting about elbow pads. There is a long explanation for it. I happened to rethink and decided that it is better if I only keep it to myself. I could not bring myself to continue writing hahahaha. If you actually read until this point, I feel sorry for you as you wasted your time. Haaaaa. Thank you though :D

..…..........

I have few things that I would really like to write but some things are better left unsaid. Keep it to yourself somehow is the best thing you can do to be happy. Haaaaa

The lattice, flapping to and fro ,

"Hello, I'm having dinner now with my family for the eve. What's your plan?"

Right now, I am devastated and crushed.
Firstly, cause I read Wuthering Heights.
It is just so sad that I need a moment after reading it. I am heartbroken.

"I have not broken your heart - you have broken it - and in breaking it, you have broken mine. So much for the worse for me that I am strong. Do I want to live? What kind of living will it when you ... oh, God! Would you like to live with your soul in the grave?"

"Hush, my darling! Hush, hush, Catherine! I'll stay. If he shot me so, I'd expire with a blessing on my lips."


And without a doubt, I definitely sure am sad.


Secondly, I read The Fault in Our Stars.
It sure is sad that I cried twice in a day because of these two books.

I blame Augustus for saying everything what a girl wants to hear. Because NO, you are leaving her. How can you build up hopes for someone to love you when you know you are soon leaving that person. No, it is just wrong and you certainly can not do that. And Josh Green, you ridiculously talented mean writer, how can you simply give the ideas of perfection of every girl's dream and made him die at the end ? That is just so wrong cause again, YOU CAN NOT DO THAT !

"Oh I wouldn't mind Hazel Grace. It would be a privilege to have my heart broken by you."

"H: People always get used to beauty, though.
G: I haven't gotten used to you just yet."


WOOOOT ahahha I was laughing and swooning like, NO, SHUT UP GUS !

Ladies and gentlemen, this was how I celebrated my new year. Tucked in my blanket and sobbed till I fell asleep. Also, by reading Wuthering Heights, I can't seem to stop myself from underlining the line that I love. There's just too much that I think I will definitely read it again, soon haha. Though I will cry again. I quite miss my literature classes and endless discussion of every single and littlest thing haha.

2014.
New resolutions are only allowed if you did fulfill your last year's resolutions. So, tell me, did you?
The ideas of renewing your resolution..... sigh. I do not know from where should I start...

First quote of the year that I would like to share simply cause everyone needs a constant reminder,

Hoping to receive the Mercy of the One who you insist on being disobedient to is a kind of betrayal and foolishness. - Ma'ruf al-Karkhi

I made a list ,

I made this. Just in case if you wanted to make me happy. Or you're curious. Or to be a good friend. Or to help me expand my collections. That would be nice :) 

From this list, I only own Wuthering Heights. Still haven't got the chance to read though. 

Oh and did you know ?

When I purchased Wuthering Heights, I was asked by the worker in Kinokuniya whether I wanted the children's version or the literature one. True story. I wasn't sure how to feel. People still assumed me as a school girl. In other words, I look young haha. Even strangers, usually uncles and aunties asked why was I not in school when I was at the mall during weekdays. That happened all the time. I am used to it. But when I was asked whether I wanted a children's version book, that just took this height thing to a whole new level. Or worse, when I use my card to pay. The suspicious faces I got just made me grin like an idiot.

I don't get it. Honestly, I have the standard heights of most girls back home. BUT WHY DO PEOPLE LOOK AT ME DIFFERENTLY ? So unfair. Oh and don't get me started what happened during my euro trip last winter break hahahaha. 

Everytime this happened, I always tell my family. No comforting words, only laughs. Cheeeeers. 

P/s : I really do need a camera. I do not have mine right now. I need one.