You know what is
frustrating?
When things that you
were not supposed to tell slipped out of your mouth.
You know what is even
more frustrating than that?
When you are SO close to
tell the things you should not to the other person but somehow for some reasons
you ended up not being able to do so. Possibly after thinking of the
consequences, it made you think twice, thrice or more and decided, oh well,
better not. When the other person is persistent and wants to know so badly
while being clueless, you will end up feeling guilty and selfish
for not telling.
BUT SOMEHOW,
Miraculously I have
mustered all my courage to do it, to tell the truth, but it did not end well. I
felt so betrayed though it was no one’s fault. I used up all my courage for
nothing. Nothing and it is sad, it made me so sad. When that unfortunate event
happened, you just knew that maybe it is a sign that it was never meant to be
told.
Because of this, I
definitely should have held my tongue from the beginning. Because of this,
there is definitely someone who hates me. Or maybe not hate because hate is a
mean word. But that person is undeniably annoyed. Well who knows ? Who wouldn’t be annoyed
to be left hanging in the middle of conversation? For this, I feel so guilty.
Like really. You don't even know. Only if the other person knows what it is
though.
I am sad for being left
with no choice but to be selfish and it makes me want to cry.
