Things we lost in the fire ,

A friend of mine just gave birth to a very beautiful baby boy. He is so beautiful. I could not stop smiling when I carried and sang to him. Mind you, I need approval from her Mama (that is how she wants to be called, not ummi like how we assumed. Talk about stereotyping hahahaha) before I sang. Not just any random songs though haaaa haha. It felt really different visiting and carrying a baby this time around and I have no idea why. I can tell, same goes to my friends. I guess it kinds of trigger the motherhood in everyone. It was surreal. Everyone was just different, I think. Hahahahhaahha oh welllllll, anyways, it was time well spent.

Friends of mine are sort of being together now but they are not putting any labels to it hahaahhaah. I guess everyone knows but tend not to care (but I kind of do haaaa). And so, I went out to eat with my friend and obviously, that guy decided to eat there too (some people like to call it fate though ahahahhaha). AND I WITNESSED THE CUTEST THING EVER like what we always see in movies hahahaha but seriously. I saw that guy's face LITERALLY LIT UP when he saw my friend haahahha it was extremely cute but so funny cause it came from him that I wanted to smack him but oh wellllll. Who am I to say anything ?

Friends of mine who planned to celebrate Ramadhan and Eid together already bought tickets. Plane tickets. Each and everyone of them and I will be alone for a month(roughly) I think. I will be the only Malaysian in this building. The only Malaysian at this street. I am not sure whether I am more to scared or sad. Or just both. And now everyone is assuming me going back (feels like smacking their heads off). When I said no, they sort of mock me in a way saying there is no way I am not going back. I do not know how to explain to them anymore. For now, if anyone tend to ask me about my plans and then mock me, be ready cause soon you will be headless. Also, I sort of invited myself to everyone's or anyone's house on Eid, obviously to eat. I will use my "pity me cause I am literally alone" card to its fullest. My housemate is going back soon after she finishes her exam which is probably by the end of this month. Am I not interesting enough that people tend to leave me ? Haaaaa oh welllllllllll. Plans have been made, I just need to be more patient. Yesss :D

Why did I begin everything with the word friend ?
Why am I writing this and not sleeping so early in the morning ?
Why am asking irrelevant questions ?
Why am I doing things that I am doing now ?
Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Why do I feel sad and happy at the same time due to the same reason ?